Peaceful Yet Unsettling Changes

1. On How Most People (Without Statistical Proof) Tend to Believe Bad Results More Easily Than Good Ones

Some objective facts: we tend to feel depressed in bad weather; we easily feel lost when waking up at dusk; before things happen, we tend to imagine dangers ahead.

I consider myself someone who prefers to believe in beauty and a better future. But I also occasionally fall into a dangerous spiral of thoughts.

Recently, some fellow patients have been expressing pessimistic and detached views, which often makes me feel somewhat angry. On one hand, I realize such mindsets can't be changed with just a few words or viewpoints. On the other hand, I can't stay silent, worried that these unproven or untested statements might affect others who aren't as mentally strong.

I often can't help but speak up. Looking back, it felt like I had this mysterious power wanting to protect and wake them up from being influenced by strange ideas.

From working hard on self-healing to sharing my journey and experiences, to possibly slowly influencing others, I'm beginning to feel that perhaps this was a warning jointly sent by my subconscious and body, and I received it.

2. New Phase: Saying Goodbye Well / Starting Well

The last time I had to say goodbye, it was particularly awkward. Extreme physical and mental exhaustion made it impossible to properly bid farewell to friends of many years. Often, I could only drag my exhausted body to share a meal, exchanging uncertain words about when we might meet again.

There were many, many friends I didn't get to say goodbye to.

At that time, neither my body nor mind had any spare capacity to deal with these matters. Even now, thinking about it brings back feelings of discomfort and anxiety.

Now it seems we're at a similar moment, but with less urgency and more composure. There's more vitality and inner determination, though it's unclear whether this will last or might waver with changing circumstances.

But I'm grateful that this moment, this reason, has given me an opportunity to rest, rethink, and reconnect with my inner self. It allows me to say proper goodbyes and make proper new beginnings.

When saying goodbye, we always hope the next meeting will mark a completely new beginning. We hope to be 100% new versions of ourselves. But 99.99% of the time, once that moment passes, we repeat our old patterns.

I hope that, so far, at least some new aspects of me are shaping who I am now.

3. Becoming Someone You Like Rather Than Someone Others Consider Conventionally Excellent

If possible, I hope to create some fun little Easter eggs for those who don't have time to listen to birdsong or smell flowers.

Some important perspectives I've recently encountered and the insights they've sparked:

• The biggest advantage of having your own philosophy is not having to agonize over choices when making many decisions
• The more relaxed you are in life and work, the more creative you become
• Being able to create small moments of joy is a very happy thing

Finally, while the order in which people enter our lives is important, who stays with us until the end matters just as much.

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❤️ Translated by Claude

👉 Original: [平静又不安的一些变化]